Lyle’s Logs (7/1/12)

She needs me to be there and I can’t be there. I am too busy being half asleep and screaming myself awake at night. God what a fuck up. I need to be there for my wife, I need to support her and focus on her, make sure that she is happy and okay. But all I can seem to focus on is the awful shit going on in my dreams. All I want is to be a better father then Aubin, but all that seems impossible because of this fucking trauma. 

God I hope this shrink can help because I am not even upset, I am fucking pissed.